*habit*

it has been ages i didn't blog, i always wanted to is just that i do not have the mood or passion to do this, speaking of passion, i think i have lost passion on my favourite - cars.

i realized i have changed so much until i myself i couldn't believe that it already happened. i used to be a person who cares about everything so much, especially friends, i'm saying friends is not because i do not like my family. Friends are so important to us for some reasons, reasonly, someone told the world that "are friends served for purpose?" i'm started to think, yes i admit and i agreed. i treat every of my friends as good as i can because i want it the same way, you may say that i'm selfish and demanding, but is just a natural cycle! REALITY ! this trip, i laready learnt a lot, and i know who are my those i should appreciate till the end of my life...who are those just for fun....

i have this habit of missing someone, it already follws me for almost a year. i used to have it but it foes on and off, but this time i'm in serious matter! i realized that i fall for this "someone" for almost a year, and i'm not tired about it. i can't believe it. this is so compicated until i do not know how to handle it, i aways tell myself that the situation will change one day. is already a month i'm back, i only saw her once, and the time i saw her iwasn't on a date with her. how pathetic !

Friends! i'm not alchoholic, i just drink to have a better sleep...dun misunderstand..i seriously hope that tomorow when i ring her up she will answer the call...pray for me ... please...