happy chinese new year :"(

i have never expected this would happen to me, feeling lonely, feeling lost, or whatever. i was listening to MyFM that day after my friend told me about it, listened to some new year songs, it sounds familiar but the surrouding is total different! every year by this time, i should be at home to help my parents for something either to help them prepare some raw food or buying stuff, but i feel that i'm so lost over here now, is totally lost. i do not have nay chinese new year feel at all...ou guys won't know how it feels if you havent experience it.i miss someone so much...i miss my family...i miss everyone...

now only i know and feel the real thing of being alone at somewhere else.although i have bunch of good friends over here, but is just different to the feeling when you were home. i always think about to hang out with friends when i was in malaysia but now i think if i can wake up every morning and have the breakfast with them, that would be so good! especially new year, my dad would wake up early in the morning to help my mum, and roughly 10 oclock he will start knocking on our door to wake us up to eat and pray. my mum will be cooking all nice dishes....god damn it mother fucker ! i miss the atmosphere!