*habit*

it has been ages i didn't blog, i always wanted to is just that i do not have the mood or passion to do this, speaking of passion, i think i have lost passion on my favourite - cars.

i realized i have changed so much until i myself i couldn't believe that it already happened. i used to be a person who cares about everything so much, especially friends, i'm saying friends is not because i do not like my family. Friends are so important to us for some reasons, reasonly, someone told the world that "are friends served for purpose?" i'm started to think, yes i admit and i agreed. i treat every of my friends as good as i can because i want it the same way, you may say that i'm selfish and demanding, but is just a natural cycle! REALITY ! this trip, i laready learnt a lot, and i know who are my those i should appreciate till the end of my life...who are those just for fun....

i have this habit of missing someone, it already follws me for almost a year. i used to have it but it foes on and off, but this time i'm in serious matter! i realized that i fall for this "someone" for almost a year, and i'm not tired about it. i can't believe it. this is so compicated until i do not know how to handle it, i aways tell myself that the situation will change one day. is already a month i'm back, i only saw her once, and the time i saw her iwasn't on a date with her. how pathetic !

Friends! i'm not alchoholic, i just drink to have a better sleep...dun misunderstand..i seriously hope that tomorow when i ring her up she will answer the call...pray for me ... please...

Weird kind of feeling... :*

Singapore airport makes me feel lonely !! things are just weird...i do not know what kind of feeling i have now..and i certainly do not know what kind of expectation i'm bringing home this time...see you in couple hours PENANG !

DECISION !?

In all of sudden, i have the weirdest feeling ever, things doesn't go well, hopes started to break into pieces, people in the surrounding changes, i just saw this phrase, "came with a suitcase of dreams, leave with a suitcase of trash". i didn't really came with a suit case of dreams but at least i have some hopes over here, but things started to change after some facts. What are these things?

Living in a different place is just like a new start to your life, but, Why in the first place you would want to have a new start, is that because you want it? or the situation makes us started it?

The most dangerous creature in the world would be human being, as we know, human being is a creature with critical thinking, and emotion. Critical thinking makes people think. Emotion makes people have feelings. so when a human started doing the emotional thinking would automatically leads to critical thinking to make decision, and this decision would be how critical the person and how emotional the person would be. You will never be able to estimate a person's thinking especially decision and emotion. these are the reason i put human as dangerous.

They will be treating you as good as you would't believe it is happening, but in all of sudden, everything just changed! A person changed because of reasons, and i understand that benefits makes people rethink the decision. sometimes i 'm just wondering why the people can't treat people as the same way they used to be?

Joan, I'm glad you helped me up when i'm down...billions of thanks !! i appreciate it.

i was sitting by the dining table starring at no where....brightness of the sun shines the part the earth.....right outside the big glass window...suddenly i felt everything was not moving, only my heartbeat. i saw layers of smoke floating..but not moving, i called it the effect of lights.

i was sitting by the dining table starring at no where....vince just happened to sit right opposite the table and he was telling me about this 5 years relationship of his friend, i do not know whether that was a friend's story or his own experience, and i decided to help him on something that would help the relationship, and that will be the last chance of getting back together. i took 10 minutes just to recaptured what he said, because that strikes me deep into my braincell and thought of something.

everytime you see it in the advertisement which explained to you that ring is everything to a commitment.
everytime you will hear it from a couple saying that buying each other a ring is a commitment to protect each other and will not seperate no matter what.

Things happened and make me think about the others...........................

我很想。。

突然间就是很想用华语写我的blog。。先在是天亮７点。。不过还是没有一丝睡意。。我已经第３天没睡觉了。。心情好乱。如果有一天我有得把我的感情换成另一样东西我可能会换成开心。别误会我的意识。我不是很不开心但我想更开心而不需要去烦恼。

刚和一个念书时的好朋友谈天。。她告诉我很多我已失去的记忆。。还蛮怀念当年的日子的。。过着没那么多烦恼的日子多没开心呢。。有些朋友已经结婚生孩子了呢！他门的日子是怎样的呢？过得开心吗？

一个人躺在床，望着窗外的日出，不懂可以做些什么。很想和你谈天但你以近好九没和你谈了。你很忙把！待会煮个好的早餐给自己。。。

i couldn't really remember how long it has bee kept in my album but one thing for sure its already for than 2 years. the one last time i ever listen to it was 2002,december. for some reasons, i love this songs so much. the title of the song is "sadness" by enigma, for those who loves this kind of music would know what i'm talking about.....

i just got myself back into it couple days ago, 2days before valentine's day, and today is 2 days after valentine's day. i decided to write this because i feel like to share some pathetic feelings of mine. ha! someone might have started laughing, but it ain't no true! i've got into this weird kind of emotion these days, i do not know what shall i do, i do not know shall i be continuing all these.. but one thing for sure i'm definitely into this for this time. i've done all the things i have never did in my life but i just feel miserable still..don't worry i ain't taking drugs, but in fact i'm turning to be a healthy person. hahaha ~ someone gonna laugh his ass off...

by listening to this kind of music, you will got yourself into this music and melody and go with the flow. it carries you up and down...with the little bassy in the background makes the song sounds even nicer. just likke your heart beat popping in your body. some flute carries your soul away.....with highest pitch.... can you feel what i'm saying? i bet you don't becasue you are not me.

i miss you....

special valentine's day

haha...i do not know why...but i have done something i never thought about it in my life..this valentine's day would be the most special of mine...i did something crazy! guys !! no hookers dun worry !! i'm not a person like this..no date for me on tonite...but i bought myslf something to make deep in there feel better. i miss all the friends in malaysia ! Papa, Stephanie, Speng, Shwa, Kit, Alex, Jason, Genie, Amanda, Carmen, Tony, and ofcoz KKS,Lipin,Lum,Goo, you all are the best pal, best people i ever met !! i list all the names down here because i want the wrold to know i have all of you as my best pal !